Have your life gone the way you planned it? Or have you even planned anything? I'm wondering this because I have no clue what I really want. Oh sure, I want to be a nurse, but what then? I do not want to jump to that boring spinning wheel of economy, adulthood and all those shitty stuff. I used to have all these silly plans about getting a job, a husband, three kids and my dream house. Do I really want those things, or is it just planted into my brains? Government puts us in the position where we have to choose between a career or a life full of misery; you cannot live properly just because you don't make that much money. The expectation of having all of above is tempting, but I guess I'm afraid all of the responsibility. Besides, nowadays (in Finland) the government has set expectations which "encourages" students to graduate earlier than before - in my case, that would be madness (I'm not that fast learner...) . It is because they want more people to work, and when they work, they get money - money from what you pay a hell of amount of taxes which automatically goes to the government.
O K things here in Finland are much better than in some other country (except Sweden....) we get free education, our health policy is probably the best in the whole world, but still if there are young adults like me, who have no clue about their future, you're in a shitty place. Sure you get some financial support from the city, but even they wont pay your rent or such forever.
The other thing that really fucks me up in the head is how we constantly have to worry about what other people think about us, about what we do or don't. I'm sick of it! Really, I mean what the fuck is matter with you by judging me by the way I look. What is it to you if I want to listen to this kind of music and you loathe it. It has nothing to do with you if I date this person. I'm really happy to have friends that I have, sorry if your jealous about them. All the above has come across in my life, or the life's of my friends. So what if I use alcohol a lot and I smoke too many fags in a day. It is my sodding life! If I want to move to another city - I need to think about what my mum says, because I'm her little girl..
halusinpa nyt taas purkaa tätä inhoa tätä järjestelmää kohtaan. vapaasti saatte ottaa kantaa. paitsi enkkuvirheisiin :D:
Oli miulla hyviä juttuja myös, meen viikonloppuna Espooseen siskon luo <3 :=":" p="p" xoxo="xoxo">
EI TÄS MUUTA, MEEN PYYKKÄÄ!
Everyone should be free to be themselves and like the things they like without other people constantly judging them. But it is so hard to live your life trying not to care what others think of you. One big problem with me is that I compare myself to others way too often. Things like 'she has an education already and I still don't know what would even be my dream job' and 'at this age, she has a baby already and I'm not even sure if I want one'. Silly, I know. But it's like a bad habit that you can't get rid of. I should just try to remember that everyone has their own lives to live and each life is different. There's no timeline that has points like 'HERE you should already have an education and HERE a husband already and HERE...' etc.
VastaaPoistaI've been seriously considering that maybe in the future I would like to live in another country. The world is so big, it's full of adventures and new things to explore, do I really want to live in the same place for the rest of my life? At the moment I'm feeling more and more sad every day about the way Finland is headed. Even though, SURE, like you said, there are a lot of things in Finland that are better than in other countries, but I've just started to see that I don't like the Finns very much.
Luckily I have friends like you guys who I know will be there no matter where I live and who I know will support me no matter what decisions I make! :---)
I know right, it's like "oh my you have a baby and all I have is .....this guitar...." :D:D:D: But yeah, I'm starting to believe more and more that I'm in no hurry in this life. It is short, I want to live it like I want and enjoy it as much as I can.
VastaaPoistaMe too, I would love to live somewhere else than here, even if it's just different city but another country would be so much better. I really want to get out of here :')
Of course hon', what ever makes you happy makes me happy too! :) I will support you till the day I die ! xoxo